its gonna be ok… i guess

heyy. sorry. its just hard. i dont like telling people things. i didnt even tell makayla. really. i didnt. so yeah. but i think things are gonna be ok. im still sad once in awhile, but its getting better.

why don’t you just tear my heart out and put it in the shredder?

my best friend is really upset. I totally understand that. Everyone goes through hard times. But me being Amelia, I want to make her hurt go away- without hurting her more. Unfortunately, she won’t tell me what’s going on. She shuts herself away- shuts down into a dark chasm. I don’t even know what to do.

Should I just leave her alone? I DON’T WANT TO HURT OUR FRIENDSHIP! But I love her more than that. How am I suppossed to respond to this, to her?

Doesn’t she realize that by doing this… closing me off because she thinks that I’m too old or something, that I won’t understand… even though she is hurting, she then hurts me in return?

ok… twice a year… ;)

haha it looks like im using this more than i planned… or right now i just have no life and am extremely bored. i just got done with this really stupid history essay that was 4 pages long. started and finished tonight, plus i had math homework, and had to study for a math quiz tomorrow and a spanish quiz for tomorrow. plus i had to type up this science thing on hot/cold packs? its weird. but yeah. i have no idea. sara emailed me. i was kinda mad cuz i didnt really want her or rissa to know… idk if rissa knows or not but i know sara does… grrrrrrr. ive been really depressed a lot over the past few days/weeks. just at random times… i think part of it also is that “he” is also kinda depressed right now… alot and i hate seeing him sad. i want to ask him whats the matter, but i dont want to but in and bug him. especially if its something he doesnt want to talk about… idk.

Sneaky little sisters….

yes
i do like the new layout. very chic. xDDD But no i did not tell them. no clue how they found out. jessie maybe? hmmmm that is weird. wait how do you know they know? what did they do?

i know you won’t blog as often, but maybe more than twice a year… please?

A.

probably not

ello… just so you know. i probably wont that often. buuuutttt you never knoww. i might. so yeah… hey did you tell sara and clarissa about “him”?!?!?! cuz somehow sara found out.

p.s. do you like the new layout? ;D

It’s April and we have SNOW on th ground.

Hey Erin. Glad to hear from you again on the web. Maybe you’ll pick back up on blogging… that would be fun. Dude, I had totally forgotten about that post. It’s kinda embarrassing because I thought you’d never see it.
I’m so glad you had a great time at the dance. Wish that I had that kind of thing going for me. Oh well whatever. I want to hang out with you and him sometime. Get to know him. After all I’m your bff. Well, your Junior bff, anyway. We really should hang out. I will call you. Actually scratch that- we are singing on Wednesday so I will talk to you then hopefully. And maybe we can hang out on Friday or Saturday. That would be amazing. But anyway we need to set something up. Even if it’s in like a month. Ok.

hey…

hey… sorry. i was just going through a time that… idk. i was kinda annyoyed at you. but i think that was probably me not you. sorry . have i been better? i think i have. we’ve been getting along alot better… these last few months have just been really rough for me… 3 diff reasons. if you feel like i’ve been hiding stuff from you, im sorry. its just hard for me to talk about them. i’ll tty on sunday. i hope you read this.